Why Do I Love You

Dear MFMS

Do you ever know why do I love you?

Here are the reasons :

I hate the way you talk to me

I hate the way you smile sweetly

I hate the way you take care of me

I hate the way you are not around and you didn't call or text

I hate the way you call me 10 times a day

I hate the way you call me for 8 hours non-stop

I hate the way you text me 300 times a day

I hate the way you say you'll always love me and will never hates me forever

I hate the way you're always right
I hate the way you lie
I hate the way you make me laugh 
I hate the way you make me sad and cry

I hate the way you make go yourself

I hate the way you advise me

I hate the way you ignore me when I need you

I hate the way you and me always have same sixth sense and stick chemically

I hate the way you drive your car

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate the way you burbling to me 

I hate the way you think as what I am think

I hate the way you read my mind

I hate the way you wear your glass

I hate the way you keep your beard

I hate the way you look so good in my eyes

I hate the way you having fight with me
I hate the way you tells your life dream

I hate the way you look into my eyes

I hate the way you kiss my forehead

I hate the way you hold and kiss my hand

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Because I love who ever you are, what ever you look, and what ever you have.

Don't ask me why I love you because I don't have the answer.

I will never ever have the answer.

The only thing that I know is that I LOVE YOU.

human common mentallity

org berisi/gemuk pasti dicop makan banyak/ malas senam, pdhal org lain xtau yg dia dah jenuh diet tp xmau jgk kurus.

org kurus kalau x larat mkn sibuk org lain suruh mkn, pdhal org xtau yg dia tu ada penyakit / perut dia  mmg kecik.

org gemuk selalu dianggap tak cantik/tak hensem, pdhal org tau ke apa erti sebenar cantik?

org kurus selalu dianggap cantik dalam segala hal, pdhal kdg2 cuba tgk hati dia, cantik ke?

org yg pandai bercakap itu ini dan mencanaikan dirinya A+ dalam segala hal, cuba semak kerja-kerja dia, sebenarnya bukan A+ tapi F- kot. cakap je pandai, sampai sanggup jatuhkan reputasi dan maruah org lain demi nak naikkan nama sendiri.

org yg lebih suka berdiam, org lain akan anggap dia tak reti buat keje, pdhal keja dia sebenarnya tip top dan tak sibuk hal org lain.

inilah realiti dunia.. nak nak dalam dunia melayu..

"i think this is too much"

I wasn't actively into neither blog writing nor blog walking, since past few months. My last entry was about a year ago! Don't know why, but yea, maybe I'm not kinda person who love to blogging. Only sometimes I did.

Today, apparently, I think I have to write. Sequencing to the tittle above, this entry emerge to be here because of I think I have to write because I know it is one of the best therapy to get heal of keeping a problem silently. Once, I was told that keeping a problem alone, will make you feel damn bad. You will be stressful, down, demotivated, unmanageable, and all sort of negative things. But, doesn't mean that we have to speak out around about what problem we're facing, but, if we tell to a trustful person or even write it out, I guess thats good enough to make us heal a bit. But, be careful, because not to all we could trust. As a Malay parable says, "Mulut Tempayan", which is lively happen in our community today, yes, they are around us.

Ok, back to the main point.

There are people who looks nice to us, but, talks about us behind. There are  people who treat us nicely, but they do that because of a reason, meaning not sincere enough. There are people who takes advantages from our kindness. I've been through quite horror time recently. Being damned (or oppressed, that is the best word suit) and being slandered. But apart of it, I learned not to trust people easily. The most annoying thing that I found is, the people who damn me seems like not tired to keep burn up the fire between us. That is totally rude and of cause - TOO MUCH! Also, the people never said the word "SORRY" to me, but yet, throwing provocation words. I made a decision to keep silent and set in mind that what past is past, also, I'd forgive for all the wrong and accept this as a fate set by Allah as written at the Luh Mahfuz. In the other words, meaning that, I'm redha. But still, the people seems like not respect me at all. Yes, this is too much! Don't you feel sorry with me even once?

The other thing that I stress with, others who are not supposedly being in the situation also interrupting and take part in spreading the story negatively. That is the most part I frustrated. I know, as my mom told me once, people will always looks for our bad even we did it once, but never remember the good things we did before. People also easily believing to negative things about someone without even figure out the true colors. Thanks mom, I understand it well now. And yea, I will never do anything to this kind of people, as I will always remember your words - "never make revenge every time you feel damn by anybody, just let Allah do that. He's know the best".

What I need to say here is, I can't stand this anymore. I got my own pride. I have my own right. People can't simply damn me. That's it.

I'm tired with all this.